Thursday, 12 November 2020

our journey pt4

so since my last post we’ve all been through a lot, 

we’ve both lost grandparents over the past few months which was a tough time for us both and not knowing when we were going to start treatment again. 

but in June we got a phone calling saying that everything will start moving again and to ring up on the next cycle which happened to be a week after Vicky’s s 38th birthday at the end of July.

we were told that we should be ready to start in August so we went to St Mary’s Manchester to sign our forms to start and to pick up Vicky’s medication.  

but this time it’s going to be really different as Vicky is to isolate from the day of her Covid test which was on 7th August until the treatment had finished which works out about 7 weeks.

so we’ve got everything crossed this time and praying every night that we get the miracle we both want.

vicky went for her scan on the 26th august to check that everything was going ok, it was, she had a thick uterus lining which is what they want so we are ready for transfer on the 2nd september.

the transfer was a success we are on Day 4 at the moment so it’s just a waiting game.

on the 14th september we did a pregnancy test and it was positive 

at the beginning of october we went for our 7 week scan as a precaution which comes with having ivf  and everything was great, we managed to see a strong, steady heartbeat.

fast forward to this week 22/10/2020 

a few days ago Vicky started losing symptoms so we booked in for an early scan at a local company to check everything was ok.

on having the scan we found out that the baby wasn’t showing the size of a 10 week baby but 8 weeks 5 days and she couldn’t find an heartbeat.

the earliest appointment at BGH was 2:30pm friday (but since were under Saint Mary’s we didn’t realise that we could use Wythenshawe Hospital,) couldn’t wait and we got an appointment at Wythenshawe hospital to find out. Vicky had to go for the scan by herself due to Covid you can’t understand how hard it was for her to do this.

the Heartbreaking news was confirmed that our baby had not survived and we had had a miscarriage at 8 weeks 5 days the only we explain how we feel is empty and lost.

in the coming days Vicky would have to pass the pregnancy, we went back to Wythenshawe on the sunday to start the process which would run on into the early hours of monday morning. we had arrived back home after nearly 12 hours at the hospital when the stuff the nurses had given her had started to kick in and we made a call to BGH where the pregnancy was passed which vicky had to do all by herself as i wasn’t allowed in the hospital and had to go home and wait for a call to pick her up and bring her home.

on the monday afternoon Vicky had to go for a scan to see if everything had gone. 

i really can’t put into words how devastated we are ๐Ÿ’” 

thanks for all the flowers and text messages we received from our loved ones over them days  

6th November2020 
 it should have been our 12 week scan today it’s been one of the hardest days ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’” 

just to let you know we will never ever forget you Baby Pate 
๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜


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